Memories & Of Lust
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You know really it was only and all about the passion, the physical. There was a connection there sure, but the main link in that connection was primal lust. Of course is was not destined to last, nothing built on just that could ever last the time it really takes. But it was incredible nonetheless. Just the thought of it now drives me to a place that is not comfortable to go to because I cannot have what I want so bad. Just the memory of her touch, her taste, her scent evokes the most erotic filled thoughts that literally have me running for the cold shower. I long to be with her, to feel her, to be inside her and to hear her slowing breathing next to me. But it's gone, gone, gone like every good thing that has ever happened to me.
There is only a memory now, a vivid memory and nothing will ever bring it back to life. And I sit, a shallow mess, wondering why something so wonderful happened to me and only to lead to just a mind blowing memory. I guess that is the way of life, we don't ever get to 'keep' anything, we are only here temporarily and everything we touch will turn into only a memory. And it seems as I get older the more of these memories I have. Some so real and beautiful that they are almost lifelike while others bring me to the bitter tears of loss and abandonment. I think the answer is to be able to 'cope' with these memories, to channel them into new things but for me all they seem to do is put me in a circle of doubt, regret and despair. I don't want these memories anymore, the good ones or the bad ones, I just want to be in the here and now. But they won't leave me, they stay to torture and tempt me of the way things were. The circle remains unbroken and continues on it's vicious and perpetual cycle, never stopping once to let me out of it's nasty grip.
mp3 Stuck In A Moment You Can't Get Out Of
U2 - All That You Can't Leave Behind
mp3 Touch From Your Lust
Ben Harper - Diamonds on the Inside
mp3 The Passion Of Lovers
Bauhaus - 1979-1983
mp3 Circular Memories
Statistics - Leave Your Name
mp3 From Despair To Where
Manic Street Preachers - Gold Against the Soul
mp3 Coping
Blur - Modern Life Is Rubbish
There is only a memory now, a vivid memory and nothing will ever bring it back to life. And I sit, a shallow mess, wondering why something so wonderful happened to me and only to lead to just a mind blowing memory. I guess that is the way of life, we don't ever get to 'keep' anything, we are only here temporarily and everything we touch will turn into only a memory. And it seems as I get older the more of these memories I have. Some so real and beautiful that they are almost lifelike while others bring me to the bitter tears of loss and abandonment. I think the answer is to be able to 'cope' with these memories, to channel them into new things but for me all they seem to do is put me in a circle of doubt, regret and despair. I don't want these memories anymore, the good ones or the bad ones, I just want to be in the here and now. But they won't leave me, they stay to torture and tempt me of the way things were. The circle remains unbroken and continues on it's vicious and perpetual cycle, never stopping once to let me out of it's nasty grip.
mp3 Stuck In A Moment You Can't Get Out Of
U2 - All That You Can't Leave Behind
mp3 Touch From Your Lust
Ben Harper - Diamonds on the Inside
mp3 The Passion Of Lovers
Bauhaus - 1979-1983
mp3 Circular Memories
Statistics - Leave Your Name
mp3 From Despair To Where
Manic Street Preachers - Gold Against the Soul
mp3 Coping
Blur - Modern Life Is Rubbish
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Labels: indie pop, indie rock, mixtape, mp3
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